Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Treatable Depression

Depression is no stranger to human kind... It has struck famous historical figures including famous artists (Edgar Allen Poe and Vincent Van Gogh), famous celebrities (Kurt Cobain and Owen Wilson), and of course, the average joe. (not these average joes)
But what is depression anyways?
In my opinion, I believe depression is seen in two ways:
1) a physiological disorder that affects the endocrine and the nervous system. (hormone deficiency)
2) a personality disorder that can be dealt with via counseling and possible change in environment.
I strongly believe the physiological theory is accurate and through empirical means and patience (along with some counseling to deal with coping) depression can be combated and ultimately conquered.
I don't believe that the physiological disorder of depression is a randomly onset disorder in some cases. Many cases of depression can also be linked with substance dependence problems, anxiety disorders and just plain stress. (reference) It is no coincidence that all of these disorders can very possibly be found in a single individual; so what I'm trying to say is that it is possible for an individual to develop a hormone deficiency after a traumatic event that ultimately leads to anxiety, stress and depression.
But on the same note, it is also possible for an individual to sporadically develop the hormone deficiency.
In my eyes, mental disorders should be looked at as physiological disorders not just an incurable personality trait.
I was reading an article from Popular Science, that that ultimately inspired me to share my opinion... (granted, it is difficult for a patient with depression to look at anything in a different light...or any light)
Run by Snow Patrol

Monday, February 27, 2012


I enjoyed at least 4 cups of coffee today (Garuda, and Ethiopian) and a triple shot soy capp. It's 12:10, I have to be up by at LEAST 6AM tomorrow. I have to give a speech and turn in a paper (that's the easy part)
-Fingers Crossed-
The consequence of having a completely blocked out schedule is that you don't have time for a mid day coffee break. Gotta keep running on steam! The only coffee I get is in the morning :( wahhh! Gotta make the most out of it.

In case you were wondering:
Garuda: A beautifully balanced blend of coffee from Papua New Guinea and Indonesia. I find it to be nutty and sweet. (some of my favorite flavors) Not too heavy and finishes cleanly.


Saturday, February 25, 2012


This is a shorter post... Not much inspiration.. Not much motivation... I'll try another post this week.. For sure.
I'll scribble out my goals for the week...

Monday: Yoga Class
Tuesday: Blog Post@Coffee Shop? + Workout
Wednesday: @home Leg Strengthening Workout
Thursday: Hiking
Friday: Another workout/hiking?

Goal for the week: Commit to this. And Do it.... Get healthy. Mind, Body and Soul.
Hopefully this will help me clear my mind.

--Picked this up with the BF yesterday:

Little Lover's So Polite by Silversun Pickups

Food For Thought... Popular Science article based off of an interesting Harvard Univ Study...

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

What Do You Do When You Blood Runs Cold?

There is and has been such an incredible build up in my brain... I feel as though I can not tap into certain parts of my brain.. Not like I used to be able to.
I can most vividly describe this feeling like... I cannot reach a part of my back that is itchy.
I find that it is much easier to lose my train of thought... I can't seem to focus as easily as I used to be able to. I find it too easy to forget the next step of a process that I am currently working on... Don't get me wrong, I can still function.. Day to day activities are still progressing per usual (or as far as I can remember) however, I do find it easier to forget the petty things. I forget that I need to get something from the grocery store. I can't study certain subjects, and in those same classes, I can't seem to focus and absorb the information. Although I do not have a burning interest in that subject, I still can't seem to absorb the material that I'm presented.

If you're in need of inspiration, Bon Iver can probably provide the inspiration you need. Warning, his music does not put you in a good mood...

Moving on...
I'm sipping a dark and oily cup of coffee courtesy of a French Press from a local coffee shop. Wow it tastes like a watery mess. I understand that I'm more accustomed to a rich, dark and almost.. hearty cup of coffee; but this is not even coffee to me - it is just water with coffee silt in it.
If I was a total douche, I'd return this... But it's just a few bucks, and I've been sitting here for a few hours..(this is my second purchase) I do have intentions to come back, without the ugly cloud of guilt floating above my head.

Maybe if I continue blogging, and ventilating my feelings.. I'll be able to function fully again.
It's as though my brain has allergies.